FUCKKKKKKK

The bleeding causes the pain,

but there is no wound,

for this sharp tingle coursing through.

Tear my body asunder,

and destroy me from within.

My body is withering away

from the constant decay,

end the misery with no delay.

All i ever wanted was truth,

so i fabricated it from lies.

The only way to redeem is

more troublesome disaster.

How can I want love,

but all I harbor is pain?

Why is this so numbing,

yet all I feel is rage.

constant thought

The world is a blur

when you never notice.

My mind is constantly

running free.

Only silence is what I seek,

A piece of my mind is escaping

now.

The decisions made are far away,

but their effects are felt today.

Gravity need not press down,

because all i want is to float

away.

My heels can no longer

be attached to this ground.

Deep space surrounding me

and the airless breath in my lung.

Is overwhelmingly enjoyed now.

wondering...

I always wondered

if everyone cries,

why doesn't it all get better.

I always wondered

how long I hold my breath,

or can time in a moment cease to count?

I always dreamed

of places so familiar,

I tricked myself into believing they exist.

I always dreamed

of people living their own lives,

not feeding off of others.

I always hoped

the world would feel better,

and the struggle wouldn't feel so damn hard.

I always hoped,

but I guess the world is just meant

to be speculation in a life of dreams.